Waiting for Sari

I can’t wait! 🙂

I am now on the 37th week and 3rd day of my pregnancy. Anytime soon I will be giving birth to our Baby Sofia Rocio or Sari as we now fondly call her.

I have witnessed my husband Jecel talk to Sari while rubbing my tummy and say how excited he is to see her soon. And oh the kicks and pokes I feel our baby gives him when he does that. She must be excited too! 🙂

I have been walking around as much as I can lately (as advised by my OB -to prepare for giving birth), and surprisingly (after not having moved much for the past months), I have enjoyed every moment of it. I don’t feel the pain I used to feel after coming from bed rest. Thank you Lord!

Much of the walking time I have spent thinking, praying and even talking to Sari. Surely God has been with me throughout the journey – from keeping me safe from being run-over by speeding cars to revealing wonderful things I should expect from this new season in our life.

Being a first time Mom, I have had my shares of apprehensions coming into this new season in my life.

For one, we are a newly married couple, who loves to have fun. People who are very close to us know how much of a ‘cartoon’ couple we are – with our crazy antics and conversations. We love to bond through travelling together and talking progressively until we get tired or fall asleep. How many of us 1st-time Moms have heard stories of the super hectic schedule a Baby brings? It got me thinking – “How can we fit in our travel plans, our spontaneous date nights, our lengthy talks? Can I really be a Mom, Wife and Career woman at the same time?”

Secondly, as mentioned, I am a first-time Mom. And so the ultimate question – “How do I raise my child up in this time and age?”. Of course the most rationale thing to do is to cross-reference with how my Mom did it. But but but.. it’s HAAARRRDDD! It’s true that throughout my pregnancy, I appreciated my Mama the most. I cannot imagine how strong she was, is and continues to be just by raising a child, how much more 3 of us!

Lastly, the eternal need to be able to provide everything good for our child (and succeeding children.. Hi Jecel! haha 🙂 ). No matter how strong I feel my faith is, there are times when I fall short at this area and think “Where oh where, how oh how?”

Thankfully, throughout my walks, all of these things in my mind have been answered by God.

In summary, through one of my favorite verses:
“Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see.” HEBREWS 11:1

I realised that the reason I was too worried of things was because I was looking into my and Jecel’s limited capacities as human beings, when in fact, we have the privilege of being God’s children. I suddenly recalled having asked my Mama and Papa everything I wanted, without shame or fear of being rejected. How much more having God as my Father in Heaven, diba? Oooh the endless list of things I could ever ask from Him! 🙂

More importantly, I appreciated that God doesn’t change, He is the same yesterday, today and forever. If He has sent Jesus to die on the cross for me, what else can He not give me? The numerous times that He has provided for us are just living testimonies of how He will continue to be faithful to us in this new season of our lives and beyond!

If that is not enough, God reminded me how much He loves me, and this love is unconditional and is the same for all mankind. Even if I haven’t seen Sari yet, I love her with all my heart already! So much so that sometimes I cry with much amazement at how God has gifted us with this wonderful creation. My heart bursts with joy every time I feel her move inside my tummy especially when Jecel and I talk to her. I can just imagine how much more God loves her, and then all my worries about how she will be provided for are taken away and replaced with joy and excitement instead. It’s like watching a beautiful butterfly come out of its cocoon. That’s how I foresee God’s plans to unveil for her life.

Thank you Lord! I have come to appreciate my life and worship You at the same time. Thank you for bringing us into this new season and for being just who You are in our lives.

I can’t wait, Lord! I am sooo excited to experience the life you have laid out so carefully and lovingly for me and our family 🙂

See you soon Baby Sari. We love you! Jesus loves you 🙂